I don't know what lead you to this place whether it be a bully, a divorce/breakup, a death, a mean comment, a drug . . . But I do know that life has its ups and downs. It has its moments that may seem to hard to bear. And you 're living it right now. But this is not the end. Life doesn't have to end on a bad note. Remember when you used to talk about how you wanted your life to end? You were picturing it as a peaceful or exciting or emotional or fulfilling moment? Why have you chosen to give up on that now?
Don't think that I don't know what you're going through. Because I do. My life has DEFINITELY had its high and low moments. But I am still here and I have made it through. I believe that it is because of God. I don't know if you believe in him or not but he is the real reason that I am still here. I am living proof. I am living proof that life really does get better.
You are not alone. You were made with purpose. God made you with purpose and for a purpose. He is writing your story and he sees how it will truly end. We are humans - we have a limited view of our lives. We can look into the past, live in the present and simply dream about the future. In reality, we have no control. But God, who loves us (even you!) sees it all and is writing it all out. Please don't give up on what he is writing.
I know it seems hard right now. You're struggling. You're numb. You're defeated. Depressed. Lonely. But you are not alone. And you need to stop believing the lies. You really are special and important and purposeful and wonderful. Let THAT sink it.
Life is tough but giving up on it will get you nowhere. The peace, joy and happiness will only come through embracing your life and seeing that hope and love exists.
Sometimes you are blinded from it because you can only focus on the bad and awful right in front of you. But PLEASE don't give up.
Suicide is permanent and will not make it all better. Where is the proof of that? No one who has ever done it is around to tell you that. But the ones who are still here, especially those who have made it through the tough moments, can tell you that life is worth living. There is more to life than the pain that you are feeling right now.
Remember the moments when you smiled and laughed and cried tears of joy? Don't lose those moments. They are still there and there are still more to come.
I am praying for you because you are special to me. And I love you. I love you enough to write this message to you, cry tears for you and to lift you up to God.
You have not been forgotten.
So . . .
Don't give up.
Don't lose hope.
Don't end your life.
Because . . .
God is still near.
You are still loved.
There is a light at the end of this tunnel.
Before you make a decision that will permanently affect you, think on what I've said for a week. And find someone to talk to. Get help. Rethink your life. PRAY! I mean, if the end result is still what you've been planning, then what have you got to lose by looking up for a bit? And if you ever need to talk to someone, there is always me. Send me an email or a tweet or a message. I will listen and I will pray for you. And I will respond.
There is hope.